b.x.

Until when I need to hold on? I can't take it anymore Why am I so we ak

I miss being able to do what I want, and be happy about doing it.  Now it all feels so dissociating Nothing is worth it anymore Nothing would be what it seemed to be. It is dark here in a world full of light. It is hard to escape from the shadows. It is as if I'm blind and everyone loves the beautiful views. Can't see anything. Can't feel anything. Can't touch anything. It is just a straight line across the ECG screen, and a straight line accross the wrist is what it takes. The urge is growing strong and I am growing weaker. I don't understand this. What is happening? What did I do to have this in me? I'm tired of this. I really am. Can I just give up and surrender already? I don't think I can continue the walk into the future. Anticipation of the end is growing intense in an uncontrollable manner. Goodbye. I can't think of anything else to say. How do you describe something you can't even explain?

心很累！！tired to the point that I cannot think or deal or feel anymore

They say: you'll never know how hungry you are until you started eating, and how tired you are until you started sleeping... I never knew how deep love can be until I met you. ~ b.x.

I'm so tired of this life what do I do

I understand. If I were you, I would be fed up and run away from me too. But don't worry, I will be gone soon.