b.x.

Until when I need to hold on? I can't take it anymore Why am I so we ak

I miss being able to do what I want, and be happy about doing it.  Now it all feels so dissociating Nothing is worth it anymore Nothing would be what it seemed to be. It is dark here in a world full of light. It is hard to escape from the shadows. It is as if I'm blind and everyone loves the beautiful views. Can't see anything. Can't feel anything. Can't touch anything. It is just a straight line across the ECG screen, and a straight line accross the wrist is what it takes. The urge is growing strong and I am growing weaker. I don't understand this. What is happening? What did I do to have this in me? I'm tired of this. I really am. Can I just give up and surrender already? I don't think I can continue the walk into the future. Anticipation of the end is growing intense in an uncontrollable manner. Goodbye. I can't think of anything else to say. How do you describe something you can't even explain?

心很累！！tired to the point that I cannot think or deal or feel anymore

They say: you'll never know how hungry you are until you started eating, and how tired you are until you started sleeping... I never knew how deep love can be until I met you. ~ b.x.

I'm so tired of this life what do I do

I understand. If I were you, I would be fed up and run away from me too. But don't worry, I will be gone soon.

 “An individual with multiple personalities can change their body chemistry with their thoughts.”  (Dr. Karen Fletcher, Kevin's psychologist) Revealed in the quote above, Split is a thought-provoking film about mental health. As an introduction,  Split is a horror-thriller film starring James McAvoy, Anya Taylor-Joy, Betty Buckley and more . Premiered in the annual film festival, “Fantastic Fest” on 26 th of September, 2016, it was released under Universal Pictures in the United States on 20 th of January, 2017 ( Hoffman, 2016 ). This film was a brainchild of M. Night Shyamalan, a director, producer, writer, as well as actor for multiple popular films such as The Sixth Sense (1999), Unbreakable (2000), and Signs (2002). As it is directed and written by M. Night Shyamalan, Split bears the special characteristics of his films; Split was filled with contemporary supernatural, horror, mysterious elements, all heading to a surprise twist in the ending. Furthermo...

We went rafting the other day, I secretly wanted something, some kind accident to happen to me so I could die. I drove very quickly that day. I went 130 km/h, secretly wanted to get hit and die fast and unknowingly. We went to get x-ray for examination of TB infection. I secretly hoped that I got it so I could die off like that and take no responsibility upon my death. I realized how selfish I am when it comes to my own death. I want to die alone and not share it with anyone. Is it my right to choose my death? Sometimes I catch myself laughing from heart, genuinely towards a really lame but authentic 9gag joke. Then, it posed as a tiny glimmer of hope to me that I am able to laugh, finally a true laugh, a real feeling. Before I get to truly grasp at it, it collapsed and disappeared before I could let myself accept it. Sometimes I see young children having innocent gestures and asking out of pure curiosity, and I catch myself smiling at it because I missed how people could be nice ...